Dude.
I’ve been finding myself frustrated of late. I can’t really find any forward momentum on the stories I’m working on (I know, I know. Poor me. Poor white male). It may be a seasonal thing or it may be a hint of a letdown from the wahoo of Christmas. Plus a little depression.
All in a days work for a Chang.
But it truly has been a trial to get the words out lately. Who knows why? Maybe it’s working on two novels at the same time in combination with running a business and trying to be a conscious husband/father/teacher/individual? I’m not sure. In my yoga practice I’m learning to stop, breathe and be with whatever is going on. Easier said than done sometimes – OK, most of the time. Especially in the writing arts where word count and progress are often the higher ideals than content, crafting and general maintenance.
Back in the 90’s (sad how it seems like yesterday. but it ain’t!) I was giving the musical life a shot after I quite writing in 1996). I would work hard on songs, crank on them, bang away on them and constantly work at them. I was a hopeless Autechre fan (now I’m just a fan) and would constantly try and compare my work to theirs: did it sound like them? Would they like it? Was I working their ideas that I heard into my own work? Was it enough? Was it good? Was it this was it that?
My wife had to sit through this and I can’t imagine why (for good insight into this phenomenon see Mrs. Stross’s post on the sufferings one takes at being the wife of a writer/musician/artist). Finally at one point she grabbed the bag of rune stones we had and made me draw a couple out. In this form of divination – you atheists and scoffers in the back can stfu right now – you draw three stones, each with a different symbol on them. These are then read and intercepted according to the lore.
I forget the actual combination of stones I drew but what my wife read from the book after she perused them went something like this:
“When the seas are rough the fishermen do not go out for fear of getting lost at sea. Rough seas and stormy weather are a cause to stay on the docks and mend the nets and attend to other matters.”
Well that about said it all.
I forget what I did in that moment but the concept has stuck with me ever since then. Throughout the years when I’ve found my nose against the glass, fogging it up and slobbering on it while the work – whatever it is – goes unfinished at some point I wise up, step back from the glass and reorganize. It’s been an amazing help. It gets me centered, re-focused and more importantly gives me a chance to recharge and get some perspective on what I’m doing. I throw this advice out to people a lot more than I employ it for myself ( for isn’t that the nature of advice giving?) but when I do employ it I find it has a huge impact on where the works goes and its quality.
So flash forward to now. As I’ve been watching wordcounts and interest dwindle I’ve come to realize that it’s time to stay on the docks, light my pipe and get out my needle and twine.

“All this line there’s gotta be a theme here somewhere.”
And of course I suddenly feel much better doing this. A lot of pressure goes off the shoulders and I can focus again.
What does this mean for the WIP’s? Well, the two most in the forefront now – A Garden Galactic & Tribal Malfunctions – kinda get the same treatment in a lot of ways. But then they are also different.
AGG needs a lot more help though due to being written longhand. There’s a certain amount of forensic work to it as I have mentioned and this means I have to sit and type out what’s been written and then stop every so often and interpret what I wrote because occasionally I seem to write in Cryrillic or Linear B (I’m fantastic like that). Along the way I end up editing the story here and there, moving it along. Which is good because the damn thing needs it. I’ve been writing it since winter 2009 and inconsistent about my days here I stop to type up what I’ve written. This is key as there are tons of loose ends which can get kind of scary.

“Ahh! Which one of you dumb motherfucker’s let that idea about sentient bugs loose! It just took out my eye!”
AGG’s got boatloads of loose ends and things I jotted in the margins along the way which most of the time I understand and sometimes I wonder what I was thinking/smoking/drinking. Right now though I have a backlog of about 50 odd pages to get through. I’m doing about 1,000-1,800 words a day on it and that seems to be chipping away at the backlog. Once that’s done I’ll get back to a regular write two days type one schedule. It works best for me as typing up all these pages is daunting and seems to mess with the continuity (I’m wondering what it’s doing to my writing in general as this has been one long experiment to help me see if my writing style/abilities have changed since I went from longhand in 1987 to writing exclusively on a Mac).

Guess I got some typing to do, yo!
TRIBAL’s got different issues but nothing too crazy. It needs some help shoring up the rough edges and loose elements. It also needs me to figure out what the hell and where the hell it’s going. Right now it’s still in the young stages where the youthful story’s boundless enthusiasm leads to a surplus of ideas jammed in. I wonder, as with many new works, how many of those will see the light of day when this bastard is done. For now, though, Tri-Mal is just getting the love it needs before I pick up where I left off.
So that’s the state of the writer as of Jan. 25, 2012.
Where are you at? What’re you up to? Tell a Chang in the comments.
Peace out, cubscout!